I havent spoken to my family in 25 years and no intentions of re connecting. Best thing I ever did was admit to myself I came from a toxic background and it would never be the family unit I craved.

I was late 40s before I could see the light and like @Liz Sinclair I was always blaming myself for not being liked or people being spiteful. I see it all now with clarity! Thank god for sites like this