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Liz Sinclair
Stage Six
Stage Six
Mar 10, 2022
In Narcissistic Abuse Discussions
I have awful nightmares that wake me up sweating and screaming. I have come to realise the impact and imprint a Narc makes on your subconscious, your psyche, your self-concept…the level of cognitive dissonance and learned helplessness all permeate the core of your cognition (how you use your biological brain to store memories). A Narc is a virus that has no cure…like Herpes or HIV. Victims can learn to manage their impact but you’re never really free from them no matter how many years you’ve been “out.” I was with my ex Narc for 20 years. As the physical, verbal, emotional and psychological abuse got worse over the course of my relationship I started to have these nightmares regularly and im still having them. My ex was always just himself in my dreams and I used to dream about trying to kill him, him trying to hunt and kill me, etc. Most eerie of all, in my nightmares I would be completely transparent and honest with him about how evil he was and it didn’t phase him a bit. I wake up in a panic because I would say in my dream what I would want to in real life and it made no impact. I wake up feeling completely and utterly hopeless. I escaped from my Narc 3 months ago. Although I have a TRO and I am free I have nightmares every single night. My nightmares are about him stalking me, trying to get to me and my kids, and worst of all…I have nightmares about going back to my old life even with the TRO and him pretending that the law doesn’t apply to him. Has anyone had this or knows how to stop them. im so tired and need sleep, but they wake me every night.
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Liz Sinclair
Stage Six
Stage Six
Jan 19, 2022
In Narcissistic Abuse Discussions
What books would you recommend for learning more on this type of abuse? Id like to understand it more but find a lot of the books out there too technical. Are there any good ones on experiences?
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Liz Sinclair
Stage Six
Stage Six
Jan 19, 2022
In Narcissistic Abuse Discussions
Im struggling to pay £65 a session with my therapist as my ex is now refusing to pay any child support. I would really appreciate any advise on how to start feeling like the old me again and stop crying all the time. I have two children under 10 and I'm trying to find work to support us all.
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Liz Sinclair

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